My life is immersed in my search for freedom from active addiction through Narcotics Anonymous. Being a drug addict is an additional stigma to being HIV positive. And while I haven’t found much support for HIV positive people in St. Louis, I have found support for my drug addiction. It is hard for family members and friends to understand drug addict thinking (or lack thereof) and actions. In active addiction it was all about the drugs, the getting and using and finding ways and means to get more drugs. I ignored the consequences of my behavior and choices. I was in denial, telling myself I wasn’t doing anything wrong because I got my drugs from a doctor. Ignoring the fact that I would nod off standing up or on the toilet.
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