Well today at 13:07 (1:07 pm), I took a home pregnancy test and the result was positive. For five years I thought I had this condom thing perfected. I am scared, shocked and all the other words that can go with it. I don’t know if my body will be strong enough. I still need to break the news to my husband (who might be happy, who knows) and my doctor (who is going to throw a fit). You guys are the first to know, probably because I don’t have to explain the fears that are in my mind right now to you.
I trust God will hold my hand and guide me through this journey.
"Can't Give Up Now" by Mary Mary
There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.
I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me
Never said there wouldn't be trials
Never said I would't fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And i feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong….”