For a whole bunch of reasons no one but me cares about, I've been doing some research and compartmentalizing in my life. Taking stock and assessing where I am not and where I could be emotionally. It has to do with realizing I don't dream anymore. I don't know when I last dreamed. I've had goals, but that's not really the same thing right? I'm negatively triggered and it has me all up in my feelings, but that's another subject for another day.
Anyway since I'm not in therapy currently, I'm working through it as I can with the tools I have. I've said before, negative triggers need a counterbalance of joy triggers. One of the ways I get to the heart of things is by word association. I find it helps me connect dots I don't know are there and close loops that I do see, but couldn't close otherwise. Lemme tell you, lol, I end up with all kinds of turns and subcategories sometimes! It usually ends up looking like some crazy hybrid of a vision board, a photographer's dark room, and a scribbled theory of relativity math problem if you can imagine.
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