I know a lot of people don't respect mental illness, they think it's controllable or all in your head, but I know that that's not the reality. I've struggled with mental health issues of some kind for as long as I can remember. I've had suicidal ideations since I was nine years old, I live with severe depression that doesn't even need a reason to bring me to my knees and often crippling anxiety that disregards logic. That's just to start, never mind the post traumatic stress disorder or mild obsessive compulsive behavior.
Lately I've been really struggling with my depression, feeling overwhelmed and dark. It feels like death to a heart. That's the best I can describe it, it's so debilitating and soul crushing, and these strong emotions can come and go with the wind as they don't need reason. These feelings control you like a puppet master pulling all your strings. It's exhausting and humiliating to be so enslaved to your own mind that seems intent upon your demise.
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