They say in order to be a strong woman you need the support of your family. Well I never had that having an alcoholic for a mother makes it hard to be able to get the love you need as a little girl.
I alwyz wanted to be heard
I always wanted to be noticed
I would watch as they would carry on with their lives
I would watch as they will walk and in and walk out as if they dont see me
Mommy I need to talk to you
Not now sweety I'm busy
Granny please listen to me just take your bible and go to church you need to pray for your mother
Im in pain no you just want attention
I need new clothes
Where do you think the money comes froms
I need a hug
Just go outside and play
Helo swty I love you
Do you really love me
Yes I will do anything for you
Finally I hear the word love
Finally I mean something to someone
Finally im going to matter
Im a virgin please be gentle with me
It wont hurt swty I promise
Please wait im not ready
I dnt have time just give it to me
No stop please stop it hurts
Im done now you can go
Mommy I need to tlk to you no swty im busy
Granny I need to talk to you just take the bible and to church and pray for your mother
Why are you fat all of a sudden
Have you been having sex
No mommy
U better not I will kill you if you get pregnant I dnt want to be a granny im too young
Oh my God im pregnant
Oh my Lord I am positive
Oh Jesus I am finished
No yolanda its not the end of the world
If you knew my situation at home sister u will not talk like that
Bby im pregnant im not ready to be a father
Im also not ready to be a mother
Then get rid of that thing
No I cant
Well you on your own
Where do I go from here
Who do I tlk too
What do I do
Mommy I need to talk to you
Hey dammit cant you see im busy
Mommy im pregnant I tld you im not ready to be a granny
What do I do
Where do I go
Who do I tlk too
I always wanted to be heard
I always wanted attention
I always wanted to be loved and
I always wanted to be noticed
Now im a mother
Now im positive
Now im finished
Im too young to be a mother
My mother is too young to be a granny
Is there anyone out there who wants to listen
Is there anyone out there who cares
Is there anyone out there who understands
I just want to be heard
I just want to be noticed
I just want to be loved
All I want is to be loved
Love is I need.....
Thats all I do I right poems thats where I find peace so I thought I should share this one with you as im too shy to let people read my poems I hope u will enjoy with love....
Loney tune
