I often relate the taking of a pill daily to reliving the trauma of, say, a horrific event, being in court telling your story of the rape, killing someone while drinking and driving, losing a child... At that moment every day that I take my pill, I am reminded I have survived another day with HIV. I am constantly reminded I have HIV. I CAN NEVER FORGET UNLESS I STOP TAKING MY MEDS WHICH WILL LEAD ME TO A QUICKER DEATH. Other than that thought, life is good. I use wine and weed to get through. Heehee, to each their own. We are reminded daily HIV is in us now we must stand head high, embrace our truth and educate others.