Angel S.'s blog

Wow I love it. I find pieces to the puzzle every day. I can not describe the support that manifests as the lies are uncovered. The truth. Shall set you free.

It feels so good to be safe. I know a couple of my blogs were pretty intense. Since I made the move and I'm running on blind faith, these things are actually coming together, coming together slowly but they are coming together. As long as I continue working on myself and believing, my higher power will help me. Without worry from sexually and physically being abused I can do anything in this world I know that. Thank you for giving me a space to be honest with myself. It's all worth it. I still do my outreach work on education and swag bags. The work to grow starts from inside and I finally...

I can honestly say I'm the most respected and hated person in a mile radius. Outreach is my passion since experiencing very traumatic events throughout my diagnosis of being HIV positive.

Falling into place Falling fast speed Falling leaves allowed to breathe. They say time heals all wounds. From my experience hard lines drawn in the sand everything can be overcome with a supportive hand. It took so much time to see my truth To realize I was really just being abused. The hands that said they loved me and cared were on borrowed time. I believed the lies and got lost in the pain. I never even saw the rain. I see clearly now the sun will shine. I never gave up just took a bit of time. Their intentions were selfish never true I was so down I believed in you. I am healing and...

Every moment in life, no matter how beautiful or horrific, can be silver. A glimmer. That's like faith.

The tracks leave uncertainty cruelty and shame. The devil lied, it's part of his game. Fear the Lord and find your space. I'm not falling apart I'm falling into place.

I'm never beat until I quit trying. It's been a week in my motel. No abuse, no drugs, I am climbing my way out of depression and being grateful for all I have.

I believe it when my street ministry lady and case worker tell me I'm falling into place not apart. Although it may feel overwhelming I don't dare become stagnant.

During the last two and a half years I have been silent, my voice quiet and non existent.... Today I adjust my sail and scream so I can clear my throat and begin to unload all the turbulence I have been navigating alone.

If you struggle with addiction, depression or mental health, please know how important you are and reach out. I shut down, now I need to relearn self love and self esteem.