Red's blog

For a whole bunch of reasons no one but me cares about, I've been doing some research and compartmentalizing in my life.

resilient: (of a substance or object) able to recoil or spring back into shape after bending, stretching or being compressed.

Hello Queens! We are off to a new start! 2021 on deck! Heeeeyyyyy nowwwww! Rock with it! Do your dance with it! Snap your fingers to it! Tip your champagne glass and shake your shimmy Girl! Toast to a new year.

I was making tacos last night (I make amazing tacos by the way), and I had the thought that I wished I was making them for someone else. Cooking for someone else. Almost simultaneously realized how lonely I am. It hurt my damn feelings.

I forget to cry sometimes. I forget how. Is it really forgetting if I shove it from my mind?

I had an epiphany this morning. Funny how they sneak up on you. Not only that, but funny how they are usually shit you already know on some level, but now, all of a sudden, you KNOW, know. I wanted to...

As we hit 2020 I have a few things to share with you. Things I hope for you to carry with you into 2020. Finding this community of women to share with and be open with has been such a blessing. I'm so...

I am devastatingly tired. Today it is a weight pressing on my spirit. It is almost as if it's the only emotion I have room for.

The pursuit of normal is such an abnormal thing. This idea popped in my head in response to something; now I can't get it out.

I'm determined not to let HIV depression get me down. I'm determined not to let HIV exhaustion get me down. I'm determined not to let HIV stigma make me bitter and closed off. The anxiety of...