No Love and Light Today

**Content Warning** This piece discusses child sexual abuse by a family member (resources available at the bottom of this blog)

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I'm so hurt and disgusted, and we cannot pretend to block the sun with one finger! And you should be ashamed of yourself if you support this.

It is public knowledge that I was sexually molested at the age of three years old, maybe two and a half, because now that I have an actual picture of when I got to the United States, it says 1975 and I was born in 1973. Those first two years of my life are when I was waiting for my father to ask for my mother and I legally to come to the United States from my country Colombia. I was living at my grandparents' home where the acts occurred against me by my uncle.

So now the cover-up goes so deep with this demented and demonic administration where they're blocking us citizens to see the very well-known Epstein list that this current administration continuously talked about! Now it doesn't exist. There's a woman in jail for being a conspirator for human trafficking of children - along with the alleged suicide of the known pedophile Jeffrey Epstein - and now they are the victims. 😪

Whatever you do in the dark will come to the light one day and I am so sorry for all the victims of these predators that have to see and feel the pain of their abusers being seen as poor victims!! Where is justice? I thought that all of you that voted for this hated pedophiles! Where is the justice? How could the Republicans vote NO to even debate about the release of the Epstein files? This will give the survivors some type of justice? What the fuck is going on in this shit hole place we call planet Earth (or let's just say the United Snakes)!? 

It is getting stronger and stronger for me. I deeply dislike the human race and I really believe that maybe 99% are bad with a very questionable one percent being good. Maybe I'm very hurt and angry, because that's just how I feel. And to see people that are known to hate and despise predators not care and still defend the undefendable makes me sick! Makes me weep! Makes me angry! Makes me hurt! But one thing I do know, one day we'll know the truth. Because again, whatever you're doing in the dark will come out to the light eventually. 🙏

Anyone that cares about children would do everything in their power to hear the truth, not to hide it because some "powerful people" may be affected!! Shame on you if you support this.

I wish some aliens were coming, would adopt me and take me out of this hell hole. Please, I don't want to be here. I don't relate to humans. And please, this is not me being suicidal! This is me at my wit's end. 😪 I don't know how much more we can take this and I hope it doesn't make us all sick and lose the last hope we have for humanity.

But for me, I try to keep myself grounded and in prayer because the thoughts that go through my mind sometimes are not good! The fear of what's gonna happen! Seeing things get worse all due to a psychopath and those that enable him, along with that network of deviants that are global that prey on children and the innocent!

As Jesus said in my belief: "But whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone fastened around his neck and to be drowned in the depth of the sea."

No love and light today 
Maria Mejia

If you or someone you know would like resources or support in relation to the themes above, please see:

• Resources on the Intersection of Women, HIV, and Violence
• Trauma and HIV