I did some BIG things in a simple way. I learned what it means to truly have a genuine heart and how to listen to it more. I learned that NO ONE knows my body better than ME. I learned that I've been very appreciative of the small things as a way of life since I was little. I also learned that while riding in the ambulance telling the EMT that I feel like I'm dying as half of my heart had shut down and I was gasping for air to breathe worse than an asthma attack, that I have no regrets and have been living a FULL grateful life.
The only 3 things that I felt were incomplete were:
- Not playing board games with my children/my mom
- Not finishing Lady BurgAndy Inc (Nonprofit) - I was investing in someone else's
- No Life Insurance (I have someone working on that)
So GOODBYE 2019 and THANK YOU for allowing me to work on the above three for 2020 as I had planned for 2019.
I was told that the type of heart tear that I had could happen again and it isn't preventable. I am quite terrified and often times triggered without others being aware. I have decided that I'm NOT going to continue living IN FEAR. Life is Life and I'm going to live it! I'm going to move forward knowing that I can have another heart attack with strong faith and hope that I won't. I'm prayerful that you will be ok with not being ok too. This is by far the hardest fear I've had to overcome. I will face the fear and do what my heart desires. Cheers to 2020!
Love & Light,